I was talking to someone recently who expressed that after she had been sexually assaulted, she strayed away from sex, becoming more asexual. I found that after my stretch of sexual trauma I went into sex hyperdrive/overload.
If you are comfortable, how did you respond? Did you turn your back to sex or did you swing to the opposite spectrum of too much unhealthy sex?
If you have not experienced this or do not wish to share, do you know someone who reacted extremely after a sexual trauma?
Previous to me being on the part of life’s journey that I am now on I used to attribute sexuality to negativity. Now I’m learning that sexuality is very normal and can be enjoyable with the right person. Now I’m in somewhat of waiting for said right person but, I express myself in poetry, writing, journaling, yoga, and meditation. I know that now sex is a very normal, natural, beautiful thing. When having sex I don’t need to USE it. Not to heal, cover, or subdue my pain.
Thank you for sharing! I can definitely relate to that! It is a real thing & we should not be ashamed of how we chose to express our pain. We know that we now have more options. In what ways to you express your sexuality now? What creative outlets do you have? Ps forgiveness takes time so do your best to not be too hard on yourself. You will fully forgive yourself all in divine timing! Xo
I dealt with molestation and sexual assault at a young age by a family member. My family, as in most homes, did not feel the need to address the issue. This opened my mind up to what sex was and I fought to find out on my own. I went into "overload" as you call it. I faced trauma time and time again with loss of family members, moving, and betrayal of friends. Each time I became more promiscuous turning sex into a coping mechanism. It was a rough stage of my life and I'm still working on forgiving myself for it.